The Reckoning

Well, today has been rather a - ok i believe. I managed to do alot of things I had been meening to do, only well.....I had just been putting them off I guess. What these things are I really don't want to talk about, so if you are reading this...i'll leave it to your imagination.

Just sitting in my room basically all day has made me realise how lucky I am in some aspects, with the way my work is spread out I still have lots of time to do whatever I want, whenever I want to, I like it when I have still quite a full life, but still time for me :) time I need right now I think.

Also waiting for Miss Daly too phone me back.

Anyhooo, that's all I have to say really.

Jackabee out.

Smooth Criminal

Ho yes, home...warmth....SERIOUS that friggin shop is fecking freezing!! But yerr, today was like ubar-cool...my manager - KT - is a grade A nutter, but she's cool, we got on well which is good...we both live in an organised mess and have roughly the same sense of humour. So it's all good. I want to rest but have this fecking quiz thing to go to...I really can't be arsed, might aswell keep the family happy though.

Yes, tomorrow is my one and only day off in a week, otherwise working 6 days a week! I think I might have to sleep.....lots. lol.

Anyways, i'm toodling off now.

Jackabee out.

Current Song: Love Machine - Arctic Monkeys (Girls Aloud Cover)

Feel Good Drag

Yesterday at work was like so awesomeness it was unbelievable! Me and fia had like the most amazing time talking/joking around, it was immense! If the monday shift comes up she so better get it!!

Also managed to do a fair bit of christmas shopping yesterday, although I still have a fair bit to buy, including parents and friendlings but atleast I got the sister and her boyfriend sorted out. It's got to the point where after 3 years i have to buy him a present....basically part of the family.
Myeh, it's 8 o clock, 20 minutes before I have to leave for work at the new job.....my body is in like shock at the moment, and I have to walk.......it looks cold out there...*checks weather toolbar*

ZERO!!! *dies* I'm gunna freeze with what I currently have on *grabs 2 more jumpers*.. that shoud do...

Going to some quiz thingymajig tonight at mum's work tonight, basically straight after I get in from work *17:30 if you are intrested* .....*yawn*.... Jack doesnt take no rest well.....ho no he doesnt. Hopefully it will be worth my while going, if you catch my drift *wink*. So if you are reading this and know me, I won't be on msn until later on if you need me! Although text me if you really want to....I will get bored at work/quiz no doubt.

;D

Jackabee out.

Hero Of The Day

Shuuhei: You surprised me Nanao-chan!
Nanao: I did?

Crazy

Shuuhei's seen something he didnt wanna see.....

Stomp!!

AND THE STARS UP ABOVE!!!
Omg I love that song it is AMAZING! [ T+Pazolite - Stomp!! ]

Now got Ryu/Ken shouting Hadouken! in my ear too a fast beat 's random lol.

Anyways lol, my day consisted of 12 hours of work o___o although i don't feel tired at all! I had a good day ^_^ i love my new job, it was very quiet today but i look forward to it getting a bit busier!!

*gets measured*

sorry 'bout that...I'm 188cm tall apparently...yeah...interesting fact for you....not


Jack out.

French Immersion

ahahahah, how wrong could i be!! The Changeling, is dull, boring and just generally not my thing!!

Today was goodo *thumbs up*, if your reading this and saw me looking down, I wasnt down...and as I said to Lizzie-Chan, I'm cheerful on the inside =]

Work tomorrow, starting at sussex lighting centre as a trial day from 9-4 and the going to capital 4.30-9.....
Methinks I'm gunna be knackered.....


Laters.

Until It Sleeps

*yawwwwwn*
Jackabee be tired, yes indeed, i'm still not sleeping well really....oh well.

Off out into college to see peepsicles, a couple in particular =] then off into town (if she has remembered) to Costa's/Starbucks/wherever......for a little while then off to the ever so lovely work. Hopefully the new film will be better than Bond, although I don't think that is very hard to be honest. XD

Well, I'm gunna go get up properly, it's 12:15 and I'm still in bed...lol...suckers.

Current Song: DJ Sharpnel - Final Countdown Tv

The Heart And The Shape

OMGLOLYAY!!

I actually have a day off work tomorrow, no bloody Quantum Of Solace anymore!!! *partay!*

*cough* AHEM! *cough* back to sanity, I inted to sleep tomorrow, meeting Rachel for lunch now, which means getting up and being active .... damn ... erm lol, i mean fantastic! Also going bowling in the evening with the gang, which should be coolness, yes indeed, i inted to play the game seriously by guttering every ball! I'm so immature sometimes....

That's all for now.


Foughten Field by Arm (sick J-Core tune)

China Grove

*smile*

Today has been alright so far, had guy come round to look at the fireplace *its friggin bust*, although I had to go to the dentist...so my Nan and Grandad came over, so I got to see them which was good. Now sitting here listening to T+Pazolite, bloody good music. Got work again today, trust me I'm gunna throw a part when Quantum of Solace finishes!

Getting comments on Tailcast aswell, people actually saying they like my work, makes me very happy. I'm smiling.

Peace.



Imashou (Forget-Me-Not) by T+Pazolite

Letters To You

Wow. That's like really cool.

Suppose I should explain, just checked my e-mails and found one that said one of my poems has been 'Featured' on Tailcast. I checked this out and sure enough when I clicked on the writing section and then the poetry section, hey presto, there it was!!

Makes me feel happy that after only like a day or two of being on it i'm being noticed :)

http://www.tailcast.com/ - check it out!

Peace.

Under The Bridge

*Thumbs Up*
Today was alrightness I guess. I woke up pretty late, and didn't get to watch any Anime as I had foreplanned to do, which is a bit suckage. I just didn't feel like it. So instead I listened to some J-Core whilst downloading more to sort out my mood [note] I was in a bad mood when I woke up [end note] it worked very well I found, you can't not be happy when listening to J-Core! I then proceeded to go to work....frigging hell I underestimated how cold it was today! So I needed time to thaw out when I got to work as I was white as a sheet and I couldn't feel my feet or hands, even though I was wearing two pairs of socks, gloves, a scarf, a hat and 4 layers [note to self] wear more next time [end note to self]

Got home and watched Spooks, hell it was good. I tend not to watch much TV but Spooks is one of those classic amazing programs that make you grip the edge of the seat. I'm hooked I guess. Now sitting and listening to music before I think about going to bed. Haha, more work tomorrow. YAY more bloody Quantum Of Solace [note 2] it's a pile of crap [end note 2].

Jackabee out.

Coheed And Cambria - Devil In Jersey City

Rendez-Voodoo

I'm so bored.
No jokes....curently listening to MGMT, they ain't bad, just not great.

Met Rachel for lunch today, went to Beefeater and had a good time. Afterwards met dad in town and bought the best of album of Stevie Ray Vaughan - 's amazing. Guitar GOD.

:(....other than that i need a hug.....

....and some company....

....just some general lovin' would be nice....

Today took my mind of what today really is. It was on my mind the whole time, atleast, I don't think it showed. 9 months has gone so quickly. I guess my time recently around here would have been better with you around Charlotte, why does life have to be so darned shit? We always said that, it's now that it's true. Those times were the best ever.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
In Loving Memory Of
<3 Charlotte <3

In Bloom

And before you say it, no, I'm not fucking depressed

Alive Out Of Habit

No I don't give a flying fuck what anybody thinks, you can read this and give a shit or not. I'm through with everything, and I mean everything, I can't be fucked to be blanked, I can't be fucked to say things and have nothing said back. You know, thinking about it so few people actually bother to see if I'm alright anymore, made me see who my true friends are, I don't give a shit if you're halfway up the country, I'm still your fucking friend, I've made the effort and what do I get in return - nothing. So I'm not going to bother anymore, I mean why should I? I deserve better than to be treated like shit, I'm nice to people for a reason, and I get nothing out of it, so there it is. That's what I truly think. No more lieing to myself that everything will be ok, because come on, when is anything ok? Tell you what guys, take a hold of reality. I'm done with this, I know who my friends are, so that's it. Text me if you want to say anything.

Soul Society

1st Squad: 'place on offer'

2nd Squad: 'place on offer'

3rd Squad: 'place on offer'

4th Squad: 'place on offer'

5th Squad: 'place on offer'

6th Squad: 'place on offer'

7th Squad: 'place on offer'

8th Squad: 'place on offer'

9th Squad: Captain Haraizan
Zanpakuto: Kyokujitsu

1oth Squad: Captain Anoa
Zanpakuto: Shinri

11th Squad: 'place on offer'

12th Squad: 'place on offer'

13th Squad: 'place on offer'


LOL YES!! me and fia are creating our very own soul society, make applications stating your name, and zanpakuto name, to either Captain Anoa, or myself Captain Haraizan!

We are so cool....

Breathe

Bought 3 new PSP games yesterdays.....for £20, not bad I suppose:

1) Fifa 2008 - not brilliant but, hey I suck at footie games anyway
2) Street Fighter Alpha Max 3 - cant go wrong with street fighter if i do just button bash lol
3) Final Fantasy Tactics War of the Lions - <3 this game already, even if the A.I is ridiculously unbeatable


And 3 volumes of Bleach for under £7 LOL. Took money of the 3 for 2 offer with my loyalty card, which I also <3

Peace.

Sonic Reducer

8 months

8 whole months now.

and the pain won't disappear.

I miss you Charlotte.

More than ever.

In Another Life

erm yeah
ignore that
I got really down
and I meen really far down
ignore it
really
serious
just

dont ask

please?

Ever Dream

It's been nearly 8 months now, this pain doesnt seem too end no matter what I do or what I say, so much has happened too me this year, and all I end up thinking is how I can make things better for myself. And that's how I get the way I am now. I need time out. If you don't hear from me don't worry, it's nothing personal, I just need space too think everything out right now. I have a fear of falling, but I constantly am, so why arent I scared?

That's all from me for now, as I said don't worry about me. It's not worth your time.

Her Middle Name Was Boom

2 new poems today, again not inspired by anything at all.... mere characters I've created and then written poems about, 'm strange like that ya know. I feel good as it gives me something kinda worthwhile too do whilst sitting here doing nothing feeling...well anyway...yeah, got a couple of days off from work and then the pandemonium starts again. Hoorah. I'm enjoying writting again, ho yes, the passion is back.. and this time with a vengeance. I just need to dig out my story now.......ho crap....where could it be?


Nobody else has ever seen it, I doubt anybody ever will. It needs heavy editing and still needs a proper start and finish. Ah well gives me something too aim for in the next 10 months until university. Seems a long way off yet.

Bought Star Wars Renegade Squadron for the PSP the other day, needless too say it's pretty darn good, but far too short and easy, and has no replay value at all really, which is a shame, hopefully the next effort by the Battlefront team will suffice, although I doubt that to be honest.

I'm skint again already, although I do get paid on Friday for my work at Shelly's and then again on Monday for my work at the Capitol, though that will go straight in the savings kitty for driving lessons/university. It's all fun really. All this work and I can't even treat myself. Ah but I hear you cry, you bought a game. Yes. I did. But with money my grandparents gave me, which is meant for treating myself. So nyer, stick that in your pipe and smoke it.

Lostprophets - Rooftops (A Liberation Broadcast)

The Blonde Lead The Blind

It's new, it's cool...it's the poetry page. Hell yeah.

http://unrestrainedwriting.blogspot.com/

Peace

Butterflies And Hurricanes

I feel good, somehow i've fund in myself the ability too sit and write again. It's not much but I've already written a couple of small poems, not inspired by anything or too do with anybody or myself, before you wonder. I will post a link too a new blog I will put them in later. Read them if you like, I dont mind to be honest.

Paper Wings

....I can wish but it won't....no....can't come true.....It's impossible....

Anyway, had a great night out last night for Katie's birthday, went too Tortellinis and then to the Malt Shovel for a drink. Then came home and had a really bad night's sleep, it was awful I just had so many thoughts running through my head, not even bad things. or things that have been troubling me anyway....they were just random thoughts I suppose.

Work tonight, joy of all joys, 22:30pm - 2:30am. Sound fun too you? Teehee, then work Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday, it's all good really, just leaves me completey shattered and my body clock will be in a complete mess so the time I have too myself during the day dissapears because I fall asleep....yay.

More from me later.

Nine Inch Nails: Every Day Is Exactly The Same

Before I Forget

I just realised, you all may want a translation of the song lyrics, sorry I didnt't post them earleir, I plain forgot while I was at work, and when I got home, I feel asleep until dinner lol.


So here they are;

As though the shades of sadness are transcending
the peaceful night sky

If you don't understand
I want to make you understand
Everything that you ought to know

From far away I can see your unwiped tears
The words that I can't hold on to are ringing out

If the world should end
Surely in that moment you'd understand
That without knowing the answer, my solitary heart closed

The hectic world goes on
as though the sound of sadness can't be heard

If meeting face to face is still a distant thought
Then I'll reject just a little this peaceful daily life

Penetrating through everything
A heart with strong resolve won't be swayed
Even on a night when a last wish can't be granted

Relying on the night sky
The river of my closed heart
Silently shimmers without anyone knowing

If the world should end
In that moment, surely, I'd be able to say it
Like tracing the overflowing memories, I'll tell you that
Reflected in your eyes was the bloom of a solitary heart




As I said earlier, once you understand the lyrics, you'll find the song even more beautiful.

Laters....

The Dark Of The Matinee

Yes they are song lyrics...

Song sung by Okiayu Ryoutarou who does the voice for Byakuya Kuchiki in Bleach...the song is sung in the character's voice also. It's more than beautiful.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7F81SKm12_w

Yozora No Kawa (River Of The Night Sky)

Kanashimi no iro ga koete iru you ni
Shizuka na yozora ni

Kizukanu to shitara
Kizukasete hoshii
Shirubeki subete o

Tooku ni mieru nuguenu namida
Mamorikirenai kotoba wa hibiku

Sekai ga owaru nara
Sono toki ni wa wakaru darou ka
Kotae o shiranu mama hitotsu mune o tojita

Kanashimi no oto ga kikoenai you na
Sewashii sekai ga

Mukiau koto o toozakeru nara
Sukoshi kobameru odayaka na hibi

Subete o tsuranuite
Tsuyoku arou kokoro midasazu
Saigo no negai sae kanaerarenu yoru ni

Yozora ni azukete wa
Tojita mama no kokoro no kawa wa
Dare ni mo shirarezuni shizuka ni kagayaite

Sekai ga owaru nara
Sono toki ni wa ieru darou ka
Afureru omoide o nazoru you ni tsugeyou
Hitomi ga kasanatte hitotsu mune ni saita

Never Wanted To Dance

zzzzzz *snore* zzzzzz.....huh wha? it's daytime..... :/

Last night at work, I must say was more than I expected, got shuvved into a busy night in Shelly's serving drinks, and all that jazz. But my my! it was so fun!! I didn't get tired at all, just seem to live off the adrenaline, it really is amazing. Although I am highly tired now, and have 30 mins before I go to work at the Capitol......niiice.

*sarcasm for the win*

Anyways I best go finish getting ready....laters.

Poem

Some of you probably recognise this from my Bebo, but this is a small poem I wrote not long ago now....I hardly use Bebo now so though I would move it here.

Take Me Away To That Special Place, Where The Grass Is Green, And The Wind Blows Soft. Where Time Stands Still And The Sun Never Sets. Where Rain Falls But Never Pours And Where Love Is Unrestricted. Where The Sun Shines But Doesn't Blind And Where I Can Lay In Your Arms Forever.

Acid Nation

I really should get up I'm going out in half an hour.....just need right something here really, I woke up early this morning, too just come on the laptop. I couldn't get back too sleep weirdly for me, I suppose I'll sleep more before work tonight.

9pm start at work......ouch......I hope I don't finish too late.....as I have work tomorrow aswell at 1pm...not nice having 2 jobs when the thought comes too it. Hopefully I won't have too work Wednesday as it's Katie's birthday....and I havent seen her for aaaages!

Anyways...onwards and upwards! (into town that is anyway)

Song: Give It All - Rise Against

-

P.S

I Love You

The Beijing Cocktail

" I pray that something picks me up, sets me down in your warm arms "

Mum's birthday today, been out for a meal with her, Rachael and Mike. Hornbrook is nice place, just the food is very filling indeed, and the portions are flippin' massive! Just sitting at home now, waiting too see if any visitors will appear. Interview later on at Colours!! I hope it goes ok, I'm feeling quite nervous already :/ If the shifts clash with current work, I guess I'll have to see what I can get the most out of doing.

Downloaded some music from Bleach, well not Bleach directly but it's the actors singing songs, some with duets like Ichigo and Rukia, and Matsumoto and Ichimaru!! They are really cool, just need to find some translations lol.

More from me later.

Looks Like Yoda

Tuesday 23rd September 2008

Ahahaha oops, keep forgetting to write stuff here really, and anyway, I don't have much to say anyway. Past couple of days have been alright, been a couple of parties, one of which a supposed guys night which was invaded by Katie and Pam XDD. I got like an hour and a half sleep the next morning :/

Wish I could get out the house more of an evening, the atmosphere here is so FAKE it's unbelievable...I hate it. Guess I'll just have to put up with it for now.

Still have to get my stuff together for my cosplay outfit...LOL, i'm so lazy....I should have done it ages ago.

Anyways, back to bed I think, I still feel ill.....yay......-_-

Mouths Like Sidewinder Missiles

Monday 15th September 2008

Wellllll today was officially the last ever park monday, it was a sad occasion, and not many people bothered to turn up. Stayed around with those guys for a while and then wandered off to my interview, which went ok, 's like I got a job to apply for and still won't get any benefits for like another week/2 weeks which is nyerrrr.

Then tootled back to the gang and sat with them, saw Ashley which was cool as I havent seen him for a while, *selfremindertogooutforadrinkwithhimatsomepoint*. After that went to work and did sweet FA basically, all the old people coming to watch historical films, I swear I was like the youngest person in the building.

Then home, sweet home, if I can call it that. Dinner, and talking now. *music stops, changes quickly*

Right. Back Again...although I have no more to say.....

Current Album: Snow Patrol - Eyes Open

Better Than Anything Else

Saturday 13th September 2008

I actually couldnt be arsed to right a blog about yesterday, it was a good day, I saw steph at college for a couple of hours and otherwise handed in an application for Waterstones....wooo go me.

Tuesday seems an awful long way away.

It's nearly 12, I'm not even out of bed, I feel like a complete lazy idiot, I should be helping around the house...but nyer cant be bothered. Thats one thing Ive realised lately I havent got the patience to do anything, I cant sit and play guitar or computer games or even read for more than 15 minutes, its horrible because they are the things that keep me preoccupied the most when I have naff all else to do.

Ho well, I assume the feeling to do stuff will come back soon...I hope.

Current Album: The Sleeping - Questions And Answers

Night...*Falls Asleep*

Dancing For Rain

Wednesday 10th And Thursday 11th September 2008

Wednesday: Well I woke up as usual and wandered around to steph's house, we then proceeded in to town where we researched some prices for my Cosplay uniform, we then grabbed lunch and headed to college. Waited around for a few hours and then spent the evening at hers and had a really great time..
:( don't get to see her until next Tuesday now...this is gonna suck lol.

Today: Got woken up by a bloody phone call from the Job seekers people wanting to confirm some of my details, buggers could of called when i was actually vaguely awake. Oh Well... erm....played Crisis Core for a bit and then watched Pan's Labyrinth with Rachael...it was fairly good but not captivating enough for me, and the computer graphics are quite dodgy but otherwise it's ok. 6/10. Currently playing Pokemon, again lol, yay for the constructive things....should really fill in some application forms XDD
Out again tonight, or so I assume, still awaiting to hear the plans lol.

Current Album: Rise Against - Siren Song Of The Counter Culture

Ciao For Now

Kennedy Curse

Tuesday 9th September 2008

Nyaaaaaaaa, today has been an utter bore fest, woke up quite late to the sound of parents and sister leaving the house saying i had an hour to get up...gits. Then went to lunch with the aforementioned and nan and grandad....great.....not. Got home and played some more Crisis Core, s'unbelievable hom many extra missions they can cram into the bloody thing.. I gave up after a while. Just stopped playing Pokemon, ho yes my Meowth evolved...finally, stupid thing. Also got many more additions to my Pokedex but I shall not bore you with the details, although I am currently trying to evolve Pidgeotto XDD. Going to the pub in a about an hour or so, see peeps I haven't seen for awhile.

Missing Steph already, don't know when I will see her next...I hope soon is the answer to that.

Current Album: Alexisonfire by Alexisonfire

All F'now, Laters.

Abandon Ship

Monday 8th September 2008

Well today i got rudely awoken by some delivery person banging on the door at 8 friggin am...not fun...incosiderate bastard, I need my sleep these days. Got up, then went to see my beautiful steph at 11:30. In between that i played pokemon, ho yes im hardcore like that...must evolve meowth...hmmm. Just sat doing nada at steph's really, just enjoyed eachother's company before she heads off back to college. Then I had to go to work, and how fun was that...not at all XDDD

Just sitting at home in my bedroom now, listening to Gallows *hardcore punk ftw*

\,,/ rock the f**k on \,,/

Until Tomorrow...Over And Out